I don't really have a plan for this post--heck, it may not even be coherent enough to call it an actual post! I feel like I've got so many things going on right now in this little noggin that an intelligent sentence would be an Olympic feat right now. I just wanted to say that I feel a sense of change coming, does anyone know what I mean? I feel restless in my soul, unsettled, uprooted, like an important time is coming for me. I feel a need for preparation, a need for time in the Word, a need for time in prayer, a need to be ready to stand up and maybe even speak out, a need to get ready to put into practice all that I've said I believe. It feels scary and chaotic and anyone who knows me, knows that feeling that way is devastating to me. And the same time I think, "Isn't this what I've always wanted?" Haven't I longed for the day when I feel like I'm doing what I was made to do. Haven't I begged God to show me my purpose. Haven't I so desired just to be useful in some way to Him? What if I'm not ready? What if I'm too scared? And the worst part of it all, What if I fail?! Well, wait a minute, is failing the worst part? Maybe not trying would be the worst part? Not trying means not really living. I MUST choose to at least try, to at least take one step at a time. I'm not even sure what that step might be so maybe I'll just start with picking my foot up and asking Him to put it down where He wants. I wonder if I'm the only one who's ever felt this way? I sure hope not! I don't really know what to do-don't really have any answers. Think I'll just take a deep breath, pray for the gift of faith for today, and pry my fingers off my life for once!